Thursday, April 23, 2009

Foolish Games.. (17)

As promised! :* Feedback is encouraged! Midterms were major rapeage and I'm not allowing myself to care lana I'm SO glad they're over! This post is 7ag my very special study buddy Noodles aka Joori ;p Anyway yeah, story time? Yes? Ok :D It's a little shorter than usual but I promise another one within the next 2 days, love you guys :*

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"OH. MY. GOD!" Ritaj exclaimed as she jumped excitedly on my bed. "What did you say?!"

I muffled my response through a pillow as I filled her in on my reply to his confession.

"Ha? Speak up I can't hear you!" She ordered as she smacked me with a pillow.

I lifted my head from pillow and repeated, "I said, 'Am I being punk'd?'"

Her eyes widened and she covered her mouth after she let a horrified giggle escape, "You didn't!"

"Don't start, please! I already feel like a big enough idiot, I think I've filled my requirements for the millenium!" I pleaded.

"Awwww baby laiiish?" She asked as she hugged me.

"Madri! Lana I wanted to say it back?" I confessed.

Ritaj's eyes widened even more and I instinctively knew what was coming next. I shot her a warning look to prevent her from saying her inevitable response, needless to say, my warning was completely ineffective.

"AWWWWWWWW!!!!!" She screamed and hugged me tighter, "You're in love with him? How did that happen? WHEN did that happen? How did I not know!"

I tuned her out while I let her come to her own conclusions as she fired one question after another and escaped into my own thoughts. I hated that I couldn't trust his words and let myself bask in the warmth of his quiet, confidently spoken statement. I hated that I had to bottle up my feelings and leave him waiting for me to form a coherent response. Most of all, I hated that I couldn't allow myself to be vulnerable for a millisecond and tell him what was in my heart.


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The Day Before..

"I love you."

I froze. I didn't know what to say. I looked away and stopped breathing and waited for the punchline, for him to take it back, anything! No such luck. The silence stretched out between us, I could feel his gaze burning holes into my head as he patiently anticipated my response. I looked up into his expectant face and offered a lame attempt at lightening the atmosphere.

"Am I being punk'd?" I asked.

He looked at my quizically.

"Punk'd? The tv show thingie? Ashton Kutcher? That 70's Show? Dude, Where's My Car? No? Nothing?"

"I know what punk'd is, I'm just confused about why you'd think I was joking." He clarified. "I meant what I said Ghala. I don't expect you to say it back or anything and I understand if you're not ready, I just.. had to say it."

I bit back a smile. "La walla? Was someone holding up a gun to your head ya3ni?" I asked teasingly.

He smiled at me. A smile filled with tenderness, love and promises. "Actually yeah, you did. Your words, your actions, your character, all the little things that make you who you are. You've had your finger on the trigger since the beginning and I've finally found the common sense to let things be."

His response tugged on my heartstrings and unleashed the sissy within. I felt involuntary tears stinging my eyes and belatedly attempted to blink them back. The attempt proved to be futile and I settled on smacking his arm instead.

"You need to stop saying things like that!" I exclaimed.

He laughed and pulled me closer to him. I rested my head on his shoulders while he spoke.

"I don't mean to scare you, I really don't even though I know you're thinking of escaping this very moment. And I want you to believe me when I tell you that I don't want you to feel pressured into saying it back. I'd rather it came from you when you felt the time was right rather than you saying it for the sake of doing so."

"I really got lucky with you, didn't I?" I asked as I stared at the tiles on the floor.

I could almost feel the presence of his smile. "Yeah, you did. You better sink your claws into me baby, from what I've been hearing lately, I'm considered a catch!" He teased.

I laughed and playfully smacked him again, "Laygi9oon 3alaik! You should be thankful you have me, madri who else would have the patience to deal with you!" I teased back and faced him, "Besides, you're not going anywhere. You love me, remember?" I asked as I put my arms around his neck.

He smiled and leaned in closer. "It's kinda hard to forget." He whispered as he kissed me. It was a different kiss than our earlier ones. It wasn't passionate, just infinitely sweet. More than anything, it was his way of reassuring me that everything was going to be okay.

"I really have to go now.." He said.

I nodded my understanding and he kissed my forehead before getting up. "Take care of you." I called out.

"You too 7abeebti, I'll call you later tonight if you're still up." He replied.

And just like that he was gone. I sat on that floor for the better part of an hour contemplating how it could've gone differently. What the outcome would've been if I confessed that I did indeed love him back, but I still couldn't wrap my head around the fact I was lucky enough to be loved by him and that stopped me from being capable of doing anything other than smile at the memory of his words.


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"So how long are you going to make him wait?" Ritaj asked curiously as she was stirring the melted ice cream in her bowl.

"I'm not MAKING him wait!" I defended, "I honestly don't know if I can say it back."

"May I make a suggestion?" She asked and continued before she got my permission, "Tell him how you feel! I know you can't help but make comparisons between him and Assface, but they're completely different. Besides you and 3azeez.. you just make sense! I don't know how to explain it! And I've never seen you this happy before, I don't know why you insist on punishing yourself like this!"

"I'm not punishing myself Juju, shako? I want to tell him I really do, I mean I look at him and I just know this is where I'm supposed to be. With him. He smiles and I automatically melt. He speaks and I die a little more everytime." I said as I twisted 3 strands of my hair into a braid, "Everything about him seems to have this gravitational pull on me and I find myself inexorably drawn to him and responding to him, the outcome was inevitable. I love him, I know I do, I feel the words on the tip of my tongue when I'm talking to him! But I open my mouth to say them and I choke everytime." I sighed in despair and fell back against the matress.

Juju mimicked my movement and turned to face me, "I don't know hun, I hope you figure whatever is holding you back from saying it soon. This amazing guy who you're crazy about just told you that he loves you! You shouldn't be feeling this way."

I smiled at how Juju always seemed to dictate the way I should and shouldn't feel/do. I sighed and got out of bed and forced her to do the same.

"Enough procrastination!" I exclaimed and threw a pillow at her, "We've dished, we've ice-creamed and we've self-therapized ourselves, studying time?" I asked.

Ritaj rolled her eyes, "Only cuz you asked SO nicely!" She said as she threw one back at me.

"You're not going to suck me into another pillow fight to avoid studying! Not again!"

"Am I that transparent?" She said as she pouted.

I laughed as I picked up all the pillows and stashed them into my closet, "No, I just know you too well. Yalla let's at least get 3 chapters done 3ashan we meet up with Joori for chocolate shots!"

And just like that I grabbed her full attention, she immediately sat down and opened her books. I felt bad for my white lie and decided to make it happen, I knew there would be hell to pay if I didn't deliver on my promise. Joori confirmed my plan and said she'd pick us up at 6.

I beamed at the sight of Juju reading the accounting book and punching numbers into her calculator. I went to get my book from my stand and turned around to face her. Her face was transformed from the serious mask she had on to a giggling one.

"Since when do you find accounting amusing?" I asked as I raised an eyebrow.

More laughter.

"Since I remembered that if you punch in 8008, it looks like boob!" She said and disolved into another fit of giggles. "And 55318008 upside down looks like boobless! Remember, G? Remember?"

I sighed, tied my hair up and took 2 tylenols. This was going to be the longest 3 hours ever.

26 comments:

said...

Lost/Stitch!:*

Gutter Flower said...

2nd!

3anooda said...

AND MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Noodles said...

i will not say anything ela after stitch does

A*MODE said...

this wasnt short this was AWEESOOMMMEEE I LOOVEE !!!.. but you still have to make it up to us with something really juiicccyyy !
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Gutter Flower said...

HAHAAHAHAHA BOOB AND BOOBLESS!! CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE! i loooooooooooooooved this post!! i love all ur posts y3ni fa mb shay yideed.. bs ina.. 7ada 7ada cuuuuuuuuuute! awwwwwwwwwww..

ufff i can so relate to Ghala walla.. im not capable of saying those three little words anymore.. i havent been able to for a very long time..

"I love him, I know I do, I feel the words on the tip of my tongue when I'm talking to him! But I open my mouth to say them and I choke everytime."

*sniff* afham walla =(

remind me laish afham again? its not like im in love.. IM NOT! IM NOT OK? IM NOT! ahahahahaah sorry..

ANYWAYS.. beautifully written as always.. ur choice of words.. ur vocab.. mashalla i loooooove.. u really are amazing walla.. i truly consider you to be one of the best writers out there.. i loooooove u my baby ;*

SlouchyPants said...

YOU POSTED!!! *Does a happy dance*

I agree with Gutter about this.
"I love him, I know I do, I feel the words on the tip of my tongue when I'm talking to him! But I open my mouth to say them and I choke everytime."

I can totally relate to that as well.

Have I mentioned how much I LOVE Retaj? she's like the funniest person EVER! w the calculator thing I THOUGHT MY LOSER FRIENDS WERE THE ONLY ONES WHO DID THAT! they have complete conversations with calculators! losers! (I'm just jealous because I was never able to use math symbols to make a word)

I. LOVE. YOU!!!!!!!

Pearla said...

i got the 8008 bs the boobless i didn't ! LOL ..
i hope she'll say those three words to him soon inshalla .. i mean a7s when she does , he'll be the happiest 3zooz out there ;) hehe ..
and as gutter said LOL, i really do too consider you one of the best writers out there mshalla ..
ino 9dg mshalla i'm very impressed :*
If your in college, what are you studying ?

mwauh ;* waiting for more ..

sexy_sour_sweet said...

You posted!!! I love you! I love you! I LOVE YOU!
You rock! Loved the post!! <3

Lost b2amreeka. said...

OMG I ACTUALLY DID DO THAT BOOB AND BOOBLESS THING ALL THROUGHOUT HIGHSCHOOL!!!! Madri if i did it when we became friends though! did i? madri LOL


who ever called lilo ONE of the best writers out there, to you i say, shes not ONE of the best writers out there, she IS the best writer out there!!!!!


loved itttt as usual!!!! Whoever loves ritaj a7ebkom! Cuz she's me!!!!! :D:D

awwww nooodlessss so sweeeet thank youuuu!! ;*********** <333 amoot feech. u rock.

N. - kk said...

Aaaaaah new post! New post! *Victory Dance* yeah babyyyy! That's exactly what I needed before heading to the airport! I love this post, oola such a shocker! Honestly, I wasn't expecting 3azeez saying "I love you" to her! Chena tawenas? But a heart wants what a heart wants! And it's obvious he's for real <3 She loves him too, so say it, damn it! :O LOL Amazing post! <3 Make more? I'ma be at the hotel alone all day for the whole weekend, so I better have something to read! Wala agool 7ag Stitch smack you! ;p No, I'm joking ;p But I really do want more!! <3

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ana; aww I remembered to reserve, cuteni! *pinches my cheeks*

Gutter Flower& 3anooda; LOL love you guys <3

Noodles; Aww lol it's fine as long as she comments first babes ;p

A*MODE; Aww 7ayati thank you! afa 3alaich, ma 6alabty shay!:*

Gutter Flower; LOL yaay glad you liked it! *victory dance* aww 7abeebtii *hugs* It sucks, I know :( lol you're not ha? *raises eyebrow questioningly* Hmm, interesting ;p Uff your comments! *blushes like crazy* a7ibich walla thank you lol I love you morer;* come live here! :(

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Slouchy Pants; EE a promise is a promise! ;p *joins in happy dance!*

aww you too? It's horrible, mu? -.-

LOL you might've said it once or twice ;p We used to do that in school too 3ad! I can write almost any name on it, only it seems to make sense to me bas :( I love calculators, great for cheating on multiple choice questions! But aww! I'll teach you hehe:*

I . LOVE. YOU. MOOORE!!! Yalla post, please?(A)

Pearla; LOL lazim upside down for it to work! I hope so too, kisar kha6ry ;p 7abeebtiii wallaa *blushes even more* you guys are killing me here! thank you walla lol and EE! Lil asaf ilshadeed I am in uni for another year and a half *sniff* I'm studying business administration, majoring in marketing! Soon inshallla my love:*

sexy_sour_sweet; lol ee I did!!! I love you more, I love you more, I LOVE YOU MORE! *blush* I do, don't I? ;p the post loved you more!:*

Lost b2amreeka; LOL EE YOU TAUGHT ME IN THE TENTH GRADE! I remembered it faj2a w thought I'd add it;p

7abeebti intay, chub! *blushes and smacks lost* my ego is enflated enough minhum, stop making me blush! red is not my color -.-

LOL everyone loves you, how could then not?! <3 Eee noodles tyannin, bagiz ma3aha this weekend, join?;p

N. -kk; 7abeeebtiii youuu wain ray7a *sniff* ashoof kuwait is suddenly darker! :( I know! I thought so to bas like on average one day is like 3 posts w la7atht i've rambled on for 15 posts about pretty much nothing w I skip wayid days so it felt like it needed SOMETHING! I'll slow things down for you though itha tabeen! :* Thank youuu inshalla lol I'll work on it tonight! Stitch doesn't scare me hmph tro7een witrideen bilsalama:*

Cupid ;* said...

haha 5319009 looks like boobies as well:p

Aishah said...

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
this post is awesome ;D
awal shay Ghala's reaction to I love u :P.... am i being punked :P
loooool seriously??

o ba3dain the BOOB and BOOBLESS lama arid likwait awal shay im going to pack ib jan6itiy a calculator ;P 3ashan asaweeha ib rab3iy :$ atwaqa3 byithbi7ooni :P

Loved the post ;**
and the previous one ;)

Starlight<3 said...

They got they mind on they money, money on they mind
They got they finger on the trigger, hand on the nines
See everyday they feel the struggle, but staying on they grind
And ain’t nobody takin’ from us, and that’s the bottom line

That song automatically started playing in my head the minute I read finger on the trigger,

3azeez is one of those guys that leave you speechless, not because hes so amazingly hot or bores you with facts or acts so cheeky but just because the things he says make you stop and think and their described to such perfection you can't reply in a sane manner without sounding like an idiot so you say things like have I been punk'd? ;p

Ahaha, you are a genius us romance with alot of comedy, which is hella harrd! I laav you ;*

LOOL! JUJUU, Boobiees. I love harassing my friends about their boobs XD I guess we're all pretty immature but I wouldn't want to be any other way <3

xoxo

*S.W ~ said...

LOOOOOOL 8008 .. i never knew that !!!
haha, i was laughing so much xD
Great post ! Can't wait for the next one

said...

Cupid;* ; lol! Eee :p

Aishah; lol glad you liked it! LOL I don't blame them! It was quite amusing back in high school now it's just throwing-stuff-at-person/choking-yourself-with-your-hair material ;p YAY, love you :*

Starlight; LOL shakhbari! hahaha <3 LOL even though he's fictional, I completely agree! ;p 7abeebtii thank you, you guys are awesome walla *blushes* LOL then you too would get along famously, she's the same way ;p

*S.W~; LOL she has a lot of free time on her hands, 3adi ;p yay glad you liked it! Soon inshalla:*

StruckByCupid said...

Amazing post! I love the whole boob and boobless! I can not wait for your next post! =D

Anonymous said...

can't wait for the next post and i hope it's a long one

Lilo said...

StruckByCupid; lol thanks, soon hopefully!:* was supposed to post today, but didn't work out too well ;/

Anonymous; aww it will be, i think.. i hope. :*

khayzarana said...

i read your blog in 2days..i really have to thank aishah for telling me about it

I couldn't stop laughing on the last 2 posts.. the 55378008 cracked me up the most.. athker min ayam middle school hehehe:P and the punked part.. well i can't blame her maybe thats the only thing that poped into her head but that was so random of her:P

3azooz is too cute! i7ibha ishawig.. ana the thing i like about your blog is that i can relate to most of the characters in the story from ghala's shyness.. to ritaj's AWWWWW's hehehe

i'm definitly a follower:P waiting for ur next blog

said...

lol aww flattered walla, you guys walla you're kabiring rasee wayid, stop it! *blush* glad you're enjoying it hun :* I'm actually working on the next post il7eeeen, comments chithee are like a major kick in the but for me ;p

Mimil said...

I love this story its amazing....the chemistry between them is magic.....

said...

aww thx! glad you think so :*

Danielsvzyq said...

Amazing post! I love the whole boob and boobless! I can not wait for your next post! =D

 
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